The next step

I'm always wondering what my next step should be, yet I often tread forward aimlessly.

This is one of those times. I'm trying to figure out the best career for me. A year ago I was gun-ho about getting a job and was hired after my first interview, only to be downsized a few months later. Now I ask myself again, what next?

Reading an article in Sunday's times magazine called The Women's Crusade I realized that I am looking at this all wrong. I'm a woman of incredible privilege - living in a safe home, in a country where women have significant professional and personal opportunities, and I was born into a family where higher education wasn't just a gift, it was an expectation. If the women in this article can break out of their circumstances to attain a goal, I shouldn't be so scared to set one!

My lifelong struggle has been finding the answer to the question, what do I want to be when I grow up. My life has happened to me nearly as much as I have chosen it. I don't know where to start in deciding what is the right professional path to take, so here I sit in a messy kitchen wondering.

Yesterday, I took one baby step. I spoke with an admissions counselor at a nearby university trying to figure out what path I could take if I want to teach. I found that despite my degrees, I'm missing some very basic classes.

Do I want to be a teacher? If so, I have to be 110% sure since getting certified would be at significant cost.

That's the hardest question for me to answer. Perhaps I've been handed things too easily. I wasn't forced to look pragmatically at my future. I feel guilty that I don't know yet. I'm afraid to say, "this is what I want to do!" Because it may have negative consequences for my family.

Not saying so apparently can have a negative impact on myself.

Comments

Jem said…
Poppet,

I'm reading this book called, "Your Best Year Yet - A Proven method for making the next twelve months the most successful ever" by Jinny S. Ditzler. It promises you can set goals in about 3 hours. You can do this yourself or with Mr. Poppet.

I've only just started the book. I'll let you know how it goes.

~Jem

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